I come from Burnage, an area three streets away from where I live in Levenshulme. Burnage is famous for two things: Oasis and Kingsway. Oasis are (were?) a Beatles cover band with a shaved gorilla for a front man and an homunculus on lead guitar. Kingsway is a big road that leads out of
When I was young I had a mate called Scott. He lived next door to me. Scott was the sort of kid who would tell you that the woman living in the creepy old house next to Cringle Fields was a witch and you’d believe him. He’d even persuade you to stake out her house with him and then bombard it with water balloons when you both got bored. When the police inevitably turned up Scott would say:
‘See how easy they are to manipulate? She hexed them and made them tell us off!’
Scott was a force of nature. I always seemed to be in trouble whenever he was around. Strangely enough that never stopped me being friends with him. Life was fun with Scott. Every day was filled with danger – usually in the form of someone we’d thrown something at. Scott scared the shit out of me but he also made me feel alive.
He was interested in just about anything and would talk endlessly about the most ridiculous stuff. Scott once told me that cats can’t look sideways. Despite the immense amount of bollocks there was usually a smidgeon of truth in what he said (except for the cat thing). It was something he said to me in his attic when we were 13 that came back to me today.
Scott: You see that gap there?
Me: Yeah.
Scott: That leads into next door.
Me: Fuck off!
Scott: Honest. All the houses around here have them.
Me: Why?
Scott: In case of fire. You can run away through the attic.
Me: Like fuck.
This nugget of information returned to me as I sat there watching the sun rise, snails and beetles dissolving in my stomach. I live on the first floor of a terraced house. Somewhere in this flat, I thought, there would be an entrance into the attic. With luck I could have access to the entire row of houses on
I found the attic hatch in the kitchen ceiling. It was a small square peeking down at me from among the cheap foam tiles. I stood there for a while, staring up at it. Then I grabbed the only chair in the kitchen – an elderly three legged stool – and slid it over the sticky lino until it was placed directly underneath the hatch.
Climbing on to the stool was a disaster. I fell off twice. The second time I banged my forehead so hard it bled. I pulled a towel out of the drawer and wrapped it around my head. The towel hung uncomfortably around my ears, reeking of mildew. Despite the revolting headgear I climbed up on the stool again and this time managed to retain my balance.
I reached up and pushed at the hatch. I was expecting a harmless yet mildly ominous creak. If this was a crap
I ran to the sink and switched on the cold tap. Nothing. I tried the hot tap, which was stupid now I think about it. Still nothing. The water had finally run out on me. I stepped around the fallen stool and flicked the light switch. The bulb snapped on. I had electricity at least.
With my tongue flopping against my bottom lip, leaking blood and throbbing, I picked up the stool and looked up at the hatch again. I’d succeeded in throwing it open - a depthless black square now hovered above my head. I re-secured the towel, stuck my tongue back in with a wince and heaved myself on to the stool. I hung my arms out to the side to help my balance and stared up at the open attic. Reaching out with both hands I gripped the sides of the hole and pulled…
…there is no point describing in detail the agony of lifting an unhealthy body through a hole in a ceiling. It hurt but I succeeded. I pulled myself up into the hatch. Then I sat on the edge with my legs dangling down into the kitchen. I took a few seconds getting my breath back then looked around me. It was totally and utterly black. I couldn’t see a thing. I explored the immediate area with my hands but found nothing, no switch or pull cord. The attic was a void.
With arms that were nothing more than aching, torturous lengths of raw nerve I lowered myself back down to the stool. I managed to hop quietly and with a small amount of grace on to the gummy lino. My entire body trembled with exhaustion.
This would take more forward planning than I had originally thought.
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Essential items
A torch
Batteries
A bag, preferably a backpack
Camouflage gear
Matches
An up to date medical kit
A wide array of tools: screwdrivers, pliers, spanners, hammer, scissors, hacksaw etc
Rope
Essential weapons
An assault rifle
A crossbow
An automatic pistol
Ninja throwing stars
A chainsaw
Lots of ammunition
Available items
A penlight
Two ancient batteries retrieved from the telly remote control
A yellow rucksack with a smiley face printed on the back
A pair of black cargo pants I bought in BHS a year ago, wore once and then chucked in the wardrobe because the groin split
Zippo
Three plasters, a tube of Savlon and half a bottle of Dettol
A Swiss army knife given to me at the age of 10 by my granddad
A ball of string I found under the kitchen sink
Available weapons
A large carving knife
An equally large frying pan
A broom handle that, when plucked out of the head and chiseled to a fine point at one end with the knife, actually looked quite dangerous
Industrial strength bleach spray
Bottle of deodorant (to be used in conjunction with the Zippo)
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I fitted the penlight with one of the batteries and tested it. It worked fine, casting a surprisingly bright but narrow beam. The Zippo went into a utility pocket in the cargo pants next to the spare battery. I’d slipped a pair of shorts on underneath the cargo pants to minimize the risk of testicular attack from one of the undead, not that I really thought this extra layer would protect me.
The plasters and the Swiss army knife went into the pocket on the other side. The Savlon and Dettol I placed into the rucksack along with the bleach spray and the deodorant.
The string came in very handy. It had been easy to secure the knife – I simply slipped it between my belt and the cargo pants where it sat nice and snug. The frying pan and broom handle were an altogether different issue. I wracked my brains for about half an hour, trying to figure out how to attach these objects to my person in a comfortable and quiet fashion.
An idea dawned on me slowly. I took the knife and began to slice out lengths of string. I tied two equal lengths around my stomach; tight but not so tight that I was in any pain. Then I used the knife to poke two holes in the chest area of my t-shirt, side by side, taking care not to cut myself (my forehead and tongue had stopped bleeding but both still ached). A quick rummage in the kitchen cupboard threw up several old curtain hooks. I cut a smaller length of string, threaded the curtain hook on to it and then laced the string through the holes in my shirt. I now had an outward facing hook balanced between my nipples. I slipped the frying pan between the two lengths of string around my stomach and placed the metal ring at the end of the handle over the curtain hook. With a little adjustment I found myself with a perfectly secure frying pan resting flush against my front. I practiced moving around and unsheathing the frying pan. Pretty soon I had become a master of kitchenware warfare (in my hunger-addled brain at least).
The broom handle was trickier. I spent a while trying to figure out the best way to secure it to my back. Eventually I cut a long piece of string and secured it over one shoulder and under the opposite armpit. Then I put on the rucksack and tightened the straps against my back. I slipped the broom handle, point aiming at the floor, between the string and the rucksack with the end jutting out behind my right ear. It sat firmly against my spine. A couple of attempts at taking it out made me realise it was not going to be as quick a draw as the frying pan or knife. I concluded that I had two decent short range weapons (three if you counted the deodorant and Zippo) and one potentially devastating long range weapon.
Climbing back in to the attic was a nightmare. I have no idea how I managed it. There must be some truth in the myth that desperate situations bring out a freakish strength and determination in people. Even though I could feel my arms stretching to their limits with the added weight of my equipment I pulled myself off the stool and into the waiting darkness. I fell into the attic gasping, clutching at my chest and waiting for my heart to explode.
After several minutes lying on my side, panting ragged breaths into the gloom, I took the penlight out of my pocket and switched it on.
The thin beam of light picked out scattered, half-formed shapes: corners of boxes, the edge of a rolled up carpet; a rotted blade on what turned out to be an ancient rocking chair tipped over on its side. I scanned the whole place, flicking the light over the roof and floor. Thick beams were spaced out at half foot intervals on the floor. I would have to tread very carefully.
I began to scan the walls, looking for any sign of a hole or maybe even another hatch. After several fruitless minutes I stopped and decided to get my bearings. The front of my house was there, the back there. That meant the north and south walls were connected to neighboring houses. I started with the south facing wall. There were only two houses to the north and at least twenty to the south: there would be more food in that direction.
I crawled over to the south wall slowly, concentrating on the beams set into the floor. Finally I reached the wall. It was thick with grey spider webs and green mold. I shone the light over the surface of the wall, watching for any sign of a gap in the brickwork. The light swept over the crumbling bricks, scaring insects and spiders back into their crevices. There were no indentations and nothing that would suggest a way out. It looked like my friend had been wrong. I sat on the beam closest to the wall, adjusting the broom handle and frying pan for comfort, and muttered,
‘You’re full of shit Scott. Your house was the only one.’
I was about to head back to the dim pool of light that led down into my kitchen when I noticed something pressed up against the corner of the wall. I pointed the penlight in that direction and spotted a small cardboard box I hadn’t seen before. I stuck the penlight between my teeth (careful not to let it touch my wounded tongue) and focused the beam on the box. I crawled towards it.
I reached the box and perched myself on the beam, cross legged. The broom handle slid half a foot up my spine as my backside rested on the rough wood. I took the penlight out of my mouth and tugged at the box. It was about three foot square. Further investigation with the light revealed that it was half filled with wrinkled books. The box was quite heavy, especially in my weakened state, but I managed to drag it away from the wall and bring it to rest on the two beams behind me. I directed the penlight at the space behind the box. There was an opening and it looked large enough for me to squeeze through.
I stuck the light in my mouth again, lowered myself to my hands and knees, and crawled over to the hole. I aimed the penlight into the hole and saw a narrow corridor, no more than three feet deep. The corridor opened out into a larger space beyond. I moved the light around and spotted more boxes in this space, an empty picture frame leaning against a wall and a stuffed bear propped against a wall. Scott, I thought, I take it all back.
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I squeezed myself through the hole with some difficulty. The frying pan bit into my stomach and the broom handle repeatedly caught itself in the craggy bricks overhead. Finally I made it through into next door’s attic space.
I paused and sat cross legged again on the beams. This house had loft insulation which made for a flatter, but no less perilous, surface. The loft insulation had the benefit of making the attic hatch easier to spot. Several sweeps with the penlight revealed a dark indentation over to the right. I began to crawl in that direction.
I tried to make my movements as quiet as possible, realising I was now outside of my own personal fortress and in unknown territory. As I reached the hatch my bowels loosened and my hands began to tremble. I lay on my back for a few seconds, breathing shallow silent breaths, and tried to control my insides. I had no idea what was down there and no idea how well those things could smell. Cargo pants full of shit were unacceptable at this point.
Gradually my hands became still and my bowels ceased their terrible rumbling.
I heaved myself on to my side and pointed the penlight towards the attic hatch. The hatch was roughly the same size as my own. A small circle of metal set into a bracket at one edge formed the handle. I could see daylight oozing out around the sides. As a precaution I slid the broom handle out and held it flush against my side. I switched off the penlight, parked it behind my left ear and reached towards the handle. Then I heard it: A low, unsettling groan somewhere below. The sound was so discordant and bizarre that I couldn’t tell if it was directly underneath me or coming from somewhere further away. It seemed to emanate directly out of the air, disembodied. My stomach responded with an altogether more insistent groan and I realised all my choices were gone.
I wrapped my fingers around the metal loop and pulled gently. The hatch lifted up smoothly and silently.
Below I could see a white carpet and a slice of the banister leading downstairs. Daylight flooded in from a window nearby. There was a dark, circular stain close to the banister – I peered in closer and spotted tufts of hair sticking to the brownish mess on the carpet. Further along was a toy train splattered with more stains.
I gripped the broom handle tight against me.
Then I saw movement, over to the right where the banister swept upwards and vanished from my field of vision. I heard another groan, louder and definitely closer this time. A shadow fell over the carpet followed by the steady thump of unsteady, slow moving feet. I pulled myself away from the hatch and huddled in the attic, gripping the broom handle and peeking down into the space below.
One of the undead shuffled into view beneath the hatch. It was impossible to tell if it was male or female – all I could see was the top of its head. The creature’s scalp was dark and soaked with various substances which had dried and turned the hair into matted dreadlocks. As it shuffled further into view I saw that a piece of its skull towards the back had broken clean away. A small section of brain, mottled with caked blood, was exposed to the morning light. I choked back vomit.
The zombie stopped instantly at the sound of me retching into my hand.
As it raised its head to stare up at me I lifted the broom handle in preparation. After weeks of being trapped in my flat I was determined to face these things, determined to find something to eat. I had the upper hand: I was in an elevated position with a long, pointed weapon at my disposal. The zombie was slow, clumsy and vulnerable. I felt a surge of confidence.
Then I saw its face.
It was still impossible to tell whether the thing was male or female. What skin remained on its cheeks looked slippery, as though it would slide off at any moment. The forehead was stripped clean of flesh and the nose had been eaten off long ago leaving a dark triangular space. There was a gaping hole in the left side of the zombie’s cheek; a blackened, slug-like lump poked out and jerked spasmodically. I realised this was its tongue. I felt myself begin to panic again at this awful sight. My hand holding the broom handle started to shake uncontrollably. I fought to control myself. The zombie opened what was left of its ruined mouth and let out another one of those mournful, alien groans. It reached up towards me with greenish white hands, as though it were pleading for me to give myself up and let it feed.
Only one eye peered out of that rotting mask, milky white with a pupil like a tiny black head spot. The other eye was gone. I saw tiny, rippled bodies seething in the gaping socket. It was fight or flight time.
My body reacted almost without any input from my brain. Starvation was driving me now, not rational thought. I plunged the broom handle through the attic hatch into the zombie’s face. The point glanced off its forehead, scraping bone. The thing stumbled backwards but soon regained its balance, grunting horrible little grunts. It snatched at the handle. I withdrew my home made spear and tried to focus. My second thrust hit the zombie in the right ear which split and fell off onto the carpet with a plop.
I thought about all the kung-fu films I’d watched. At this point in the movie the hero would be channelling some Zen bullshit in order to defeat overwhelming odds. I found myself lacking several decades of martial art training and simply trusted to chance again.
My third shot hit the zombie in its empty eye socket. The pointed end of the broom handle sank in by a few inches and then met resistance. The zombie’s arms began to flail around its body, its grunts and moans changed to tortured howls. I forced the handle in deeper, slamming it through the creature’s head. The point emerged through the hole at the back of the zombie’s skull, dripping greyish brown lumps of brain. The zombie grew still and then collapsed on to the carpet, sliding itself off the handle. I watched it for five minutes but it didn’t get up again.
I pulled the broom handle back up into the attic and wiped it on my cargo pants leaving a smear of brains and twitching maggots on the fabric. I now knew that these things could be killed. It looked like the movies had got that particular part right – remove the head or destroy the brain.
For the next fifteen minutes I waited silently, watching the hallway below for any more signs of undead activity. The zombie I’d killed had hit the floor with a solid thump and I still had no idea how well undead senses worked. When I was certain no others were coming to investigate I slid the handle onto my back again and lowered my head carefully through the hatch.
There were more stains, broader and darker, leading to the left of the hallway. Sinister dark lumps were scattered about the stains and, as I took in more of the passage, I spotted a tiny body lying outside an open door at the far end. I tried not to look too closely. The poor kid had died trying to run to the safety of his bedroom: I could see a small area beyond the door, littered with soft toys and plastic figures, a bunk bed in the corner. I screwed my eyes shut, turned my head and looked the other way.
Three more doors led off the hallway to the right. One was a bathroom, directly opposite the child’s room, the door was open and I could see a sink and part of the bath. The other two were closed. I concluded that these must be bedrooms. I decided to check them first.
I was becoming adept at pulling myself in and out of attics. I lowered myself to the carpet below with very little effort, landing with a foot on either side of the dead zombie’s cracked skull. I looked down at its rotting body (the stench was almost unbearable), then I glanced back at the dead child. A surge of rage hit me. I snorted, clearing my sinuses, and spat into the zombie’s face.
‘Bastard!’
I crept along the hallway to the first bedroom, one hand lightly gripping the broom handle above my shoulder, the other resting at my stomach close to the hook holding the frying pan. The bedroom door was very slightly ajar. I prodded it gently with my foot and it swung open.
The room beyond was brightly lit by sunlight streaming in through a bay window to the right. It was a clean room: cream carpet, double bed, fitted wardrobes; the master bedroom. I inched my way further inside. The room was empty of bodies, dead or undead. I spotted a wire frame chair sitting next to an ornate dresser. I grabbed this and stepped out of the room. I placed the chair under the attic hatch. If things got too fucked up I wanted to be out of this house as soon as possible.
I crept back into the master bedroom and went over to the bay window. I crouched low and snuck a look outside on to
I saw a zombie staggering around on one foot in circles, like a drunk who has lost all function in one leg. This zombie was female, tall and willowy but not as rotten as the rest. She wore a hat, some kind of black beanie, with the letters TDDO imprinted on it in white. In one hand she carried a tyre iron or some kind of giant alan key. She was using this to take clumsy swipes at another zombie lurching around next to her. This one was male and, bizarrely, was thrusting a brown walking stick at the sky. He also appeared to be less decayed than the others. He wore a t-shirt with a picture of Gonzo from The Muppets printed on its front. The walking stick had something impaled on its end. Against my better judgement I took a closer look: it was a fat pigeon, speared through its stomach by the stick. The walking stick zombie was making more noise than the others, howling incoherently at the sky. I assumed the beanie zombie was either trying to fight him for the pigeon or was trying to make him shut up.
Others staggered around, monsters who had once been people. Policemen, shop workers, a couple of
I stepped back from the window. I needed to check the last bedroom then head for the kitchen. Moving cautiously and with as little noise as possible, I made my way to the second bedroom. I reached out for the handle and eased the door open. A brief look was all I needed. Three bodies, torn apart, lay in what was clearly a girl’s room. Torrents of dried blood were sprayed around the walls. Two adults and another child, a little girl, lay in pieces on the floor. It was a charnel pit, a slaughterhouse. The stink was overwhelming: a cloying, sickening wave of liquefying flesh. My eyes found it impossible to take in the scene as a whole. I caught flashes of severed limbs, torn throats, staring eyes. That was enough for me. I needed to get the fuck out.
I headed for the stairs, unsheathing the broom handle as I moved.
I looked down into the ground floor hallway. Silence. I moved quickly, descended the stairs and stood for a few seconds in the hall to orientate myself. The front door was hanging on one hinge leaving the house fully exposed. I glanced in that direction and saw the horde of zombies out on
The kitchen was a sizeable mock-farmhouse affair. Unvarnished wood fittings and a giant stove in one corner, a knotted wood breakfast table in the middle of the floor. The back door was closed. Through the kitchen window I could see a small yard enclosed by tall brick walls. Conscious of the gaping wound at the front of the house I began to open cupboards and drawers as swiftly and silently as possible.
I found canned goods in one cupboard: beans, spaghetti, mixed veg, soup, stewed steak, fruit pieces. In another I found dried goods: rice, pasta, bags of nuts. I checked the fridge and sent up a brief prayer when the light came on. It was still working! I found unopened cartons of long life milk and orange juice, apples, slices of ham, cheese and 8 cans of beers. I looked in the freezer and found chips, frozen veg, waffles, sausages, burgers, pizza. This was a family with a diet after my own heart!
I shrugged the rucksack off my shoulders and opened it. I took out the bleach spray and deodorant to make more room. The spray I hooked through a belt loop in the cargo pants and the deodorant I slipped into a pocket. Then I crammed as much food as I could into the rucksack. Soon it was full and I was left with a pile of food on the floor. I needed to find another bag. I opened the cupboards under the sink, looking for a plastic bag, anything to contain the left over essentials.
Instead I found a boy, hiding beneath the plumbing below the sink. His face was turned away from me and his tiny body shook violently. Oh Christ, I thought, Bunk beds. There were two boys.
‘Hey, hey. It’s okay,’ I whispered, glancing back over my shoulder at the open front door. All clear still. I reached out to the boy, tapped him on his shoulder.
‘Come on, I’ll get you out of here.’
The boy reacted instantly at my touch. His body flopped towards me, still trembling violently, and I caught sight of a massive tear in the orange t-shirt he was wearing. Purple-blue tubes squeezed out through the hole. Something bright red and glistening dropped to the kitchen floor, leaving a thick smear.
He turned his face in my direction and I saw the damage that had been done. Half of one cheek was hanging in ragged strips. Two bloodshot blue eyes glared out at me.
I let out a yell and fell backwards over the rucksack, sprawling on my back across the floor.
I felt something tug at my shoe and lifted my head to look. The boy was pulling at my foot, his mouth open and straining towards me. I screamed and shuffled backwards across the floor, away from the dead boy. He crawled out of the cupboard, his eyes on my face.
Then I heard a sound behind me. I twisted to look and saw that the undead horde on
I felt a strong tug at my shoe and it flew off, hitting the window above the sink.
‘Oh Jesus,’ I thought, ‘I’m fucked…’